Friday, January 30, 2009
cookies with milk on a saturday morning


Its saturday and im going to be home all day.
why?
due to my sun burnt skin which is peeling bit by bit.
I think i look like a walking polka dot creature.
Colours : Dark brown & Light brown.
Oh lord help me.

On a brighter note,i have new healthy skin appearing on
my face but the irony of waiting for it to spread evenly is
taking too long.I need my skin to recover fast but i cant
do nothing about it.Which has been pulling my mood down
alot.

Saturday's are supposed to be the day loverboy and me spend
time with each other and im missing out on it today which kills
my mood even more cause i wont get to embrace his cute face.
Or kiss his soft fatty cheeks and play with his small jelly like fats
around his waist.Goodness,i miss him so much and i cant even
get a chance to show it.Shit.Bullshit.There's another reason why i
dont wanna meet him up though,and he knows why.So its uncessary
for me to spill it out right here.

I am frustrated now but like I said i can do nothing about it.
I'll just have to be patient and wait.And baby dont blame
yourself about the sunburn incident.Its not anyones fault.
I should have known better to have brought protection
for my skin.Everythings fine now.Im just bugged because I
will not be able to meet my muscle man.Hmm,another boring
saturday coming up I guess.

Im thankful that carlos & carly are around though,at least they
will be keeping me company through out this sulking day.
sulk sulk sulk.That is the main feeling predicted today.Enjoy your
saturday people.Dont choose to waste it like me.Have a jolly good
time.

i miss you like fuck.
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Still kissing you

I'm so in love
I'm still in love
I've never been in love quite before
until I saw your face
and watching stars without you
my soul criesmy hething heartis full of pain
when we're apart the achingI'm kissing you
I'm kissing you

You're my father
you're my soldier
you protect me,
boy you save me
you're my best friend
you're my husband
you are my doctor,
counselor,provider,
professor, my everything

And I love you, I love you, I love you, yes I love you
I need you, I need you, I need you I can't live without you
I trust you, I trust you, with every ounce of me
Just teach me, boy teach me, just take me

When we make love I can feel all your spirits
deep inside of me
Baby you're so pure
I'm Kissing you forever, and ever, and ever
I love Kissing you (kissing you, kissing you)
Boy I love everything about you baby
it's been so many years since we fell in love
we got something special babywe can cry together
we can grow together be ourselves togetherand
I love you more than music
yes I love you more than music

I rather be kissing you, oh I'm kissing you oh (kissing you, kissing you)
Beyonce - still in love(kissing you)
lil leopard pawed by @ 6:35 PM
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Escapade.


I dont mean anything to the world but i mean the world to you.
I tend to ponder about your past but your smile distracts me into serenity.
Like an escapist,you never fail to be positive.
You dont realise how much you've sacrificed for this miracle to
happen eventhough i know you will never want to admit it.
Its not easy to notice my objectives,but you of all people sees it.
You never fail to take the blame for every wrong turn we make.
I am awry to judge you by your flaws,but your flaws were the keys to my heart.
You call me beautiful not for my appearence but for the person I am.
I set aside my senses when im with you because I feel secure.
Its unecessary for me to speak for you to feel the way i feel.
Its never a need for me to apologise f
or my emotions because you know me better.
You'd cater even to the smallest of needs.
You never once did objectify
For a guy,your never calculative over the things we've done.

Its hard for a man to potray this towards a girlfriend all due to
his ego.Its nice to see a change.You have no idea how very proud i am of
you.There's no denying that other girls would die to be in my shoes.

How could i ever hate you when all i ever needed was you.
everything is you,all is you.

Humans can never get enough of the better and thus
they always demand for more,this leads to addiction.

Which applies perfectly to my situation
My emotions can never get enough of your love thus
they always demand for more.Due to how distant we always are.
Now its obvious,Your my addiction and as long as you're around,
the addiction will never cease.
Im no hopeless romantic and im not too extroadinary with my words.
But all you need to know is that i'll stick with you no matter the consequences.
I cant be without you.

I have more care to stay than will to ever go.

EXACTLY.


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Supreme One's album !
hey people.
A close friend of mine supreme is promoting
his album to increase the amount of local
talent we have.
Check it out allright,very very nice album
done by a very very nice guy.
Oh and im in one of the tracks too.
(I actually forgot about that untill supreme reminded
me to put it up) *laughs*



let me know if you're interested in buying the
album.

Oh and just for extra info,he was the one performing
together with Kay Swisha on Live n Loaded.So go for
it and shake your butts of listening to it.It would be
a great workout for the body too. * laughs again*

omg so lame.Ok!Ok!Go check it out ok.You can get it
at the esplanade shop in the esplanade mall unit #02-02.
Couldnt it be anymore obvious (-.-)'

Now run along and go support local talents.We need them
to shine baby.

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Friday, January 23, 2009
Concrete love.

Im exceptionally bored at the moment,its a saturday and my ass is lazing off like nobody's buisness.I need to get out soon because school has already taken about 90 % of my life and im left with another 10 % to enjoy.Seriously,10 %,tell me how pathetic can it actually get.But no matter how tough school can potray in everyone's minds,school is not too bad after all.With great teachers,lovable classmates and adored air conditioned classrooms.It could not be anymore wonderful.
(This line almost sounds like the one in the spiderman movie ' With great power comes great responsibility' see the resemblence?)haha.ok now thats pretty lame anyway back to the post.

There's this teacher in school who is our current favourite,that is Mr Leonard Ong.He's our CME teacher and he's one cool dude who drives a mini cooper.LIKE (@&$) ~
No joke,he actually owns one.Plus he's a great guy with the most outrageous personailty and he laughs at his own jokes which make us laugh at him afterwards.It reminded me of my baby Q though,like whenever he does that.Such an interesting idiot.He is an idiot,a really educated one infact.

Keemy's mum called me a few days ago,acknowledging me about his aunts birthday celebration today at his uncles house.So im guessin that i will most probably be spending my whole saturday at bedok together with keemy's uncontrollably crazy family.Which is in a good way of course.Well i'll just reward her with my presence for her birthday gift then.lol.

Babyboy's booking out at night.Which gives me the oppurtunity to go get my fake eyelashes at woodlands.Like finally,yeahhhhhhhhh man.(-.-)
I've been craving for it so badly.Its been awhile since i last dress my eyes up but then again im just too freaking lazy to get off my bed.Untill then,i'll be waiting for his call.Thinking of occupying myself with some good chocolatey indulgence.
Why not right?Speaking about indulgence,Akeem owes me gummy bears.He promised to get me some last week and he has not fufilled it yet.BIGFATLIAR.IHATEYOU.

News Flash - I've got 2 new kids ! (:
Carlos and Carly.Long story on how we actually got them but all that matters is that thier sleeping soundly right beside me now.I'll be updating about them in the next post so dont worry.Keep your mind wondering.I too remembered that I owe you guys a post about akeems used to be girlfriend.Dont worry,if you thought i forgot about it then your dead wrong.I wont sleep on it untill i get that post done.

Whatever it is all's good for now and im blessed with so many good things that has happened but i'll always be expecting the worse.So dont think you can get me by surprised cause i'll be well prepared if someone one tries to snatch something away from me.I will be READY,MIND YOU.







To my beloved camy,i miss you so very much.

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Friday, January 16, 2009
Camy.

Its funny how can life go by so fast.
How a small wrong step could end your life or how short time can seem when you start loving something so much.
Not knowing when it'll drift away from you,you just carry on giving the fullest amount of compassion you can give.
Its heartbreaking when things go wrong.Especially towards someONE who puts u to peace,calms your mind or even makes you feel like you belong somewhere somehow.
The desire for her warmth never seems to stop hoping you would feel it everyday when you get back home.
She greets you at the door,she sleeps on your skin,she accompanies you whenever you feel lonely.She may be an animal but she caters to your emotions more than how a human could ever do.Tell me how am i supposed to let go of something so precious like that in just a blink of an eye.
2 hours ago she was just right infront of my eyes,playing with her favourite stuffed toy,mr fish.How could i be so careless,how could i not see it coming when i've experienced it myself a few days back.
It was a sign and i was just too blind to even realize it.Now im shedding tears knowing she'll never come back.Digging into my own heart to make her know that she was more than something to me,she was SOMEONE.She was so special,even more special than the people who i cared for.She was my babygirl and now she's gone.
This opened up my eyes,you can never be too sure about anything.In a snap,it might just vanish.
It happened so sudden.No,too sudden that is.Watching her grow so fast,it hurts so much to even think of how unfair things can get for her sometimes.She was my princess who loves attending to everyone's needs.She's always updating herself on us.She's always concern,you can tell.At least i could,even mum knows.Now,I can no longer hear her bells ringing,or feel her warmth on my bare skin.I have no choice but too accept change.But i just want her to know this...

the very day i found you.i knew you needed me.you cuddle in my arms so perfectly,like a baby in a mother's care.You stared at me so innocently with those round green eyes.You were gorgeous.Even more beautiful then the sunset.You dont know how much u mean to me.Akeem is my poetry,but you were the lyrics.

thank you camy,for guiding me through the hardest times eventhough we're from seperate worlds.You understood me.And thats what i treasure most.I love you.I heart you and I'll always remember you.Your name's engraved in my heart.Forever will it be babygirl.
lil leopard pawed by @ 5:16 PM
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
cricket sounds.
Ok this i gotta say,i just signed up for facebook due to boredom.
I swear my patience is running thin at this very moment.
Where's all the excitement.I need it FAST.

signing off boredly,fat bored kid.xoxo
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Monday, January 12, 2009
gratitudes.


So,its my first post for 2009.No fancy stuff just yet cause nothing quite interesting has happened but as usual i am looking forward towards the days that im gonna be living by.I know i promised to update about new year and the last few days of 2008 but I was just too shagged to even get on my keyboard to start typing.Guess it was the 2009 blues.And know im starting the early jazz.
ok lame (-.-) .

Allright,lets start afresh,i dont think that theres a need to know what happened on new years eve cause it didnt went too well.Lets just accept the fact that its the past and that the past should remain untouched.So here i am now in secondary 5,yes i repeat secondary 5,im an 'o' level candidate.Ok i think you people are probably screaming omg in those empty good for nothing heart of yours,hater.'O' levels screams my name this year and in return im screaming for HELP.

So far im coping quite well with my academic studies.Maths is truning into a favourite subject.Tell me about it,your suprised?Im freaking out because i think maths is interestingly irritating.I need to digress from this topic.Its taking up too much of my precious brain memory.All the best to me though.Im expecting a total downgrade in my social events due to my mugging.Oh well,i'll just have to endure this one year.Oh and here's a fun fact,my mum's eager for me to try out for Singapore Idol 3,if there is even one.She said this....

'hey,kak siti why not try out for sg idol 3?I want to see you shine' - mama

'dont want la maaa,im already shining,look at my oily face..hahaha' - me

'oik,mama not joking la,i wanna see you on tv,so you'll make me proud' - mama

'are you trying to say that im not doing enough now ? :/' - me

'No,you know im your number 1 fan and i want to share my daughters
lovely voice with the world,you dont get that alot in singapore you - mama
know kak,its very rare'

'Then O levels how?What if i cant juggle?' - me

'Your starting to sound like your uncles n aunties,ade2 je alasan tau
kalau pandai jaga masa,siti tetap akan lulus in whatever u do,just
believe in yourself no matter how many people condemn you,just bolayan' - mama

'bolayan or whaaat,my mum's turning into a minahrep.LOL.i love you ma' -me

How cute is that.I just finished chatting with mum and i've come to a conclusion that human needs are undesirable.If one does not know thier limits,thier bound to suffer from permanent head damage.HAHAHAHA.what in hell's world was i thinking.
Its true though,people who think too much end up doing nothing because they've already wasted thier time thinking.Its always advisable to actually share your thoughts with someone else so it'll liften your burden.On the contrary,I've been doing alot of emotionally supporting kinda chats with the girls and boys.

It touches me because they look at me as a place for comfort and i thank all you grateful people who see me in that way.You are one of the reasons why this life of mine seems so meaningful when people think its meaningless.You guys deserve so much in life for your good doings,im sure he'll reward you someday somehow.Now its time for me to hit the sack because i have school to attend tomorrow.As monotonous as i sound,i am crazy about going to school because its pushball day today ! The girls will roar like lions and charge like beasts.Not joking.lol

anyway i have a very interesting post coming up about a girl who doesnt really know what to expect from life.This particular girl has threw so many golden chances away just by making the wrong decision to satisfy her own needs.Now she's starting to regret and miss it.Pity pity that little kitty.Hear her meowing for attention.Im going to get this done with in my next post.Dont miss this.

And my ns man is doing very fine with me thank you.We didnt need your concern anyway.

To be continued....


oh and here are some pictures of me when i just got my new lappy.I was playing around with the webcam like a kid.Im just in love with my new lappy.Got it as an early birthday present.Thanks mummy,daddy.wo ai ni forever & always..enjoy (:


























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Thursday, January 1, 2009
Swanlake.
SATURDAY :

Azra called me early in the morning just to remind me about todays plan which was malaydance.Yes laugh all you want.I had to fill in for her junior who was on a holiday.It was surprisingly fun trying to cope with the dancesteps after 5 whole years of not practicing.If only my joints were made from gears then you would be able to see how rusty i was.I looked like a penguin trying to fly.Funny huh.But in the end i did get the steps right and i ended up being as graceful as a swan during the performance.
Mr akeem met me at the performance area,and as usual he complimented me on the way i looked simply because he has never seen me in our traditional dance costume before.I could tell that he fell in love with it or something else which is obviously me(-.-).He suggested that I should actually be doing more of this to take up my time.I have the pictures but its in my dads cell and its abit complicated to transfer them to the comp.Dont worry though,i'll try to get it done soon enough.The performance ended around 9.30 and baby wanted to cab to arab st to get my hummus.(go get it at mosi cafe.Its absurdly finger liking good,lol).
Met up with mizan,fakir and dilly there.We didnt stay for long because the atmosphere was not really soothing so some of them decided to go off.But mr ns and me wanted to spend more time with each other so we cabbed to marina barrage.yes the new place,somewhere we've never went before.The view and the place itself was breathtaking.Its was marvelous.I really hope that the construction is going to be an apartment building because i wouldnt mind buying a place which is located at such a peaceful place like that.Akeem found out something about me there.Thats between me n him.Im not blurting out anything about that.Utter most apologies guys.Dont think too much allright.Its nothing bad and nothing serious.

kpo ah kpo. -.-'

Well after taking considerable trouble to understand each other more so that we wont be engaging in more disagreements.We left for handsome's house.On the way back we bumped into alyph,syarif,raihan and the guys.Keemy was not really feeling well so we just greeted and left.I especially loved that saturday because one particular person was so passionate and honest that it actually opened my eyes to see how pure he actually is.My baby,so fragile yet so strong.Your complicated and moody but at the end of the day you never fail to make my day.Be it with just a sweet kiss or the way we handle situations with both our hearts.Your magical.To me,you really are.

SUNDAY :

Slept over at keemy's the day before.His mum invited me to a 'kenduri' at his unties house.As pernormal i was enthusiastic about going due to a couple or reasons.
  1. His baby cousin (nurin christina)
  2. His other younger cousins who know me as kak fana.(dont laugh at this) :/
  3. His uncle who loves to pick a fight with me.
  4. And the amount of happiness i feel when im out with them.


    But tragically something happened and im not going to touch on that simply because i have to respect his family's privacy.Lets skip to the fun part because you guys deserve the best.
    Headed to khatib after that.Its sort of like a park but at the same time like a perfect place to have fun activities with your family.There was swan paddling.I scurried down to the bumper car area.I was like ' I havent rode this in ages ! Wah ader bumper car seh ! ' and so there i was acting like a happy fat kid.I certainly felt like i was 8 again.They have paintball and fishing too!Its not gonna be very long untill my next visit.I could tell that akeem and his family waere definitely having fun.Lightens my heart to see them smiling and laughing happily.Well that was the weekends.Im gonna update you about countdown soon.Kisses Xoxo


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