Monday, March 9, 2009

Stupid Fuck.

I had to go through so much trouble to find the perfect blogskin and now its in chaos.

wtf .


Anyway,in class,while everyone was doing thier own thing waiting

for the substitute teacher to get bullied for another lesson,

Taufiq suddenly turned his back and said this to us ..


'EH da lamer eh tak kite smue tak terkencit dlm sluar?'


Belarrrrrdyyy fuck.It drove everyone to

FULL BLASTING EAR SMACKING LAUGHTERS.

I swear taufiq,kau nye org random nk mampos.random gileeeeeee sia.

This is why school's so fun.

And i cant believe the fact that i'll be leaving all this people to pursue my dreams.

Goodness,the world actually is unfair.


Meeting Mr Macho soon near my place.

Not too sure about the destination we're heading to yet.

I'll updat u soon loverjournal of mine.Dont worry.

your gonna be pimped out real soon. muwah.



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Friday, March 6, 2009
got a pocket full of love right here.
Q has always been there,no matter what.i love you b.

Pure sincerity or what..haha!Im smiling widely now.
This is the definition of why i cant stop loving him.
Trust me there is no one like him,your just so cute.
Emotional & soft hearted.Baby your beautiful to me.
Bitches,you got to envy me now coz i have the greatest
babyboy in the world no doubting that.
I bet u girls are turning green reading this post
ahahaha.toooo baddd he wants mee not youuuu..
*sticks tounge out*
(:

Ok i'll take back what i said about today.It's the most wonderful feeling ever.Im in love like how a fat kid loves cake.For my case its Coffee.Starbucks,here i come.
signing off feeling all relaxed and lovely.thank you.*kisses*
Mybe i should get into fights more often...Im loving the feeling,haha.
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anger & resentment..you name it.

Im torned to pieces i must admit.
its just unbelievable.
if i could only retreat from reality or better still from this world.
Am i to endure the pain?
Those who used to matter to me,were chucked aside because I
felt much more comfortable with you.Like you were all i needed.
Honestly,this feels like shit.I feel like shit.What you did yesterday
was not manly.I dare say it.

No matter how bad the argument was
(which on the contrary was a tineey wineey disagreement)you
should have stood your ground but nooo you had to walk out of it.
Its unfair because it seems like im trashing about
you.I want to fair it off with my doings too but i just cant seem to
dig out any wrong doings of mine here.Im unsure if i even did sth.
Or mybe i just didnt realize it.But staying out late is no crime to me.
As long as i behave right it wouldnt be a problem.

I dont do this often and sometimes i miss the life i used to have
You forgot something..You forgot that im still 17.The age range where
I will most likely experience more things.Your already 20 so i suggest
you start acting your age and respect the decisions I want to make.
Im no trouble maker and neither am i disobedient.So why is it so hard
for you to take the time to think about what i wanna do.

This is not a press conference and its just between us both.It should be
a breeze for you to think clearly.You said you wanted to protect my
image?I thank you for that but let me learn my own mistakes.
I dont want to feel fake because i know how real i am allright.
Anyway,there was no pressure when you were there but
you acted like you were carrying the whole world on your shoulders.
But on the spur of the moment when you left me,my heart stopped.
And i felt like crashing my whole face onto the concrete floor because
I could not believe you did that without even saying a word.

That just shows how little respect you have for me as a girlfriend.
Or mybe it was my fault because i was not playing the role of a strongheaded
girl in the relationship instead i kept on spoon feeding you.
No matter how hard i try,its never enough.
and whats more shocking is that,you didnt even check on me if i was home yet.

This is the first,usually you would..Something is just not right with the beautiful
picture we painted together.I dont know how or what to do to resolve the matter.
I dont expect you to be perfect,but i do expect you to be loyal and honest.
You should have went up to me and said that you felt like going home.
You left without even looking at my face,that was rude.
Were you even thinking at that point of time?
Shocked ?No words can describe the emotions im feeling now.
Dismissively you left,like as if you couldnt be bothered.

im glad my words hit hard on you this morning.It was supposed to.
You left me alone at the end of the day.
You made a mistake by doing so.
Like i said,its only the result that matters after every situation.
Not the situation itself.

i love you and i want to make this work.
but i sense that this is just the beginning of the struggle.
You play a part in it.We can make this better.We have to
fight the war in order to obtain victory.
dont give up just yet cause i'll be fighting every way i can to
keep this flame burning.


I FEEL TERRIBLE TODAY.GREAT.

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Friday, February 20, 2009
Carlos n Carly.
As promised,here are the pictures of my two babies.B1 n B2...hahaha.I wish.
Wouldnt it be awesome if you were to have banana's in pajamas as a pet.
mcm cute gitu kan.
allright2,lets end the nonsense and admire the beauty of my babies.enjoy

















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more than affection,your the desire.

Turn the music on loud and shake the stress off.

Thats what i intend to do in the next couple of hours to come.

It's been hectic with school occupying almost every minute of my time.

Oh shit,and the stress of the o levels are beginning to scare me out of my undies.

Time's running too fast and im still walking at my own pace.

Wake up call.ring a bell.


He had to leave for a mission 3 days ago and as lonely as i was,i did not complain.

Never,na-da,zero-O.I was at peace knowing his out there trying to prepare himself

for the worst.If it were to happen,he would be the first to sacrifice all that he has made possible.

How thoughtful of him,it takes much courage to face the most fearsome future,you know.

What a hero i thought to myself as I heard the sound of the guns blasting away on the

morning of the 19th.He could handle the most hastiest situations so well,which most

of it includes me.Its just an honour to be known as his.You've changed the way i see life,now

even the most disturbing sight of you seems to paint such a beautiful picture.Glad?yes,no doubt.

And i'll assure you this,


I'll fall together with you when your knees touch the ground.

I'll sink together with you when tears starts to lure you to drown.

I'll still hold your hand even if you were to lose an arm.

I'll still hug you if your smothered in mud.

I'll accept you at your worst,so dont be shy.

Im more than just a girlfriend.I am your reflection.

If you go through troubled times,you'll never have to feel insecure because im your sheild.

And you're my armour.

Remember when we used to call ourselves the male and female versions of each other ?

Well,we still are,because despite the things we do,i do see me in you,vice versa.

Our desire and passion is just so intense.Its shown that we are indeed different from the rest.Its no mutual infatuation but the devotion is just so selfless.Im fond of everything that is so delicate about you.This is the best i can do with words.Forgive me if i ever did harm you or offend you.I pray that the purity of your touch will remain in me always.To us...
Amour,never seperated.
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Saturday, February 7, 2009
fucked up.
Its happening way too often and im getting sick of it.
Questioning myself for my own mistakes?
Mine ? Yours ? Ours ?
Its difficult to even try to make an attempt to differentiate between the 3.

So this is my first challenge being 17.
Great,out of all things.
He truely knows where my weakest point lies at.
Wonder how am I going to overcome this misery.


Help.I need You Back.
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Thursday, February 5, 2009
February girl.



Growing older became something I wanted to do desperately to accomplish.In fact,every young teen wished they could be older from time to time.Look at how presumptuous i was never to consider growing as a challenge but as an accomplishment instead.This was merely the type of thinking i had when i was young.Now I wished ageing was something i could avoid.
Compare the two pictures above.Look at how much i've grown.Is it not scary to all of you?Soon,you might not even realize your 30,bearing 2 kids,working as a career woman.
Thats one frightening fact right there.But im relived that its only going to happen 10 years down the road from now.At least i can have the chance to stictch up my life before its too late.
However,although time is rushing the clock,I am looking forward to the prospects that lay ahead of me.Wondering if i'll be even more struck by the harsh reality of how difficult each moment would be in the future and how i'll learn from it.Life's pretty interesting and mysterious because you'll always end up with unpredictable surprises.
Well whatever it is,im ageing and maturing as well.So i hope the best for myself and hope i'll be that aspiring person i always dreamt to be when i was a kid.

And to all the people who congratulated me,wished me,sabo me,hit me,pinched me,'molested' me(goes out directly to my class girls),bitched about me,took advantage of me,spoiled me,catered to me and praised me.

Thank you so much because you made me the stronger person I am now.
Im proud to say that im aware of how much i've changed as a person and i'm glad I had to learn how to overcome certain obstacles and learn humanity skills from those around me.
If it was not for you guys and especially my family,
The girl that's typing this post now would not be glowing in the dark in her own way confidently.
To my secondary 5 lovers,you guys are the sweethearts of my life.
Such angels,im sure it'll be a cherished memory in my heart.

And to the february girls,here's a little something i came up with...

February : Fabolously Etiquette Bitches Rocking Unthinkable Accomplishments Naturally Year-long.

I replaced the last R with and N for fun so dont mind it.

There you go.my birthday post.
ooh,and im looking forward to today.
Another celebration (:
see you bitches.<33>Happy 17th Fana Boonana.:D
lil leopard pawed by @ 10:57 PM
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